Comments on: dreaming http://thefire.us/archives/55 Projecting Opacity Thu, 17 May 2012 22:04:51 +0000 hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.3.2 By: Gabriel http://thefire.us/archives/55#comment-38 Gabriel Tue, 11 Mar 2008 06:20:21 +0000 http://thefire.us/archives/55#comment-38 One reason (among many) that I try not to fall asleep during the day is because the dreams have a far greater emotional impact. They're closer to the surface, closer to what's real, closer to the conscious mind and all it's hopes, fears and dreams. Twice I've dreamed dreams that were so perfect--that were everything I could ever want my life to be and contained such a rich spectrum of happy, contented, satisfied feelings--that when I woke up I cried. Made me want to die that my life was so far from that dream. Then again there've been dreams that showed me just how much the past had affected me as much as I might deny it. How broken and lost I have been or am. Either way, I wake up miserable... I don't nap, because no matter what I wake up unhappy. Life is far better when I stick with the conscious one. The best dreams are at 10 AM when I get to sleep in. Thank god for weekends. Dreams are intense. They'll mess you up. I'm glad I'm not the only one that takes note of colors and light in dream, though. That stuff is always gorgeous. If I could capture that light in the real world I'd be god-damn rich. One reason (among many) that I try not to fall asleep during the day is because the dreams have a far greater emotional impact. They’re closer to the surface, closer to what’s real, closer to the conscious mind and all it’s hopes, fears and dreams.

Twice I’ve dreamed dreams that were so perfect–that were everything I could ever want my life to be and contained such a rich spectrum of happy, contented, satisfied feelings–that when I woke up I cried. Made me want to die that my life was so far from that dream.

Then again there’ve been dreams that showed me just how much the past had affected me as much as I might deny it. How broken and lost I have been or am.

Either way, I wake up miserable… I don’t nap, because no matter what I wake up unhappy. Life is far better when I stick with the conscious one. The best dreams are at 10 AM when I get to sleep in. Thank god for weekends.

Dreams are intense. They’ll mess you up. I’m glad I’m not the only one that takes note of colors and light in dream, though. That stuff is always gorgeous. If I could capture that light in the real world I’d be god-damn rich.

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